♥Kangaroo's Diary.

09 February 2010

I want to smile.

The three oranges above depicts the three typical kinds of students in school.

The scholar (straight As despite heavy commitment to cca).
The average Joe/ Jane (stuck somewhere in the middle).
The weaker ones (super glued to the bottom for no apparent reason).

Guess which one I am.

I think it's normal to struggle for a while before you get used to it. After all, it's a huge jump from the O lvls to JC life. Everyone starts from zero again.

With love.

03 February 2010

10S7C - Ares.

We're sorted out into our new classes! I'm starting to miss my OG now. It took three or four days for me to successfully break some ice, and now it feels like the effort has been wasted because I have to start breaking some ice all over again. Wow, such a long sentence. I think the sentence structure is a bit wrong btw. :P

10S7C!

New class, new faces and a familiar face. The girls and guys seemed to know each other already. This knowledge makes me panicky. Why does everyone know everyone except me?! O_o" They seem to be nice people... I shall force myself out of my comfort zone once again to talk to them more. I suck at making conversations, especially when the other party is even quiet-er or shy-er than I am. I shall go around introducing myself as Audrey Yeo Si Ying! Hopefully with an English name, they can remember me better. :D

I'm having doubts about running for the council. An introvert like me should be hiding somewhere under a rock instead of coming forth and nominating myself for a leadership position. Mind and heart battle happens again. I want to go and test my limits. Even if I'm not elected I will still mature and learn something from the experience. Hey, there's always a first time, right? I should just go for it! (Prep talk again.)

With love.

31 January 2010

School + HSK Gathering.

Orientation has been fun so far. I still think I'm pretty quiet, sometimes emo-ing in a corner, especially when we're under the sunlight. I don't mind getting tanned but I mind the irritating UV rays alot. Contradicting. I am trying my best to talk more to people. Seeing the smses Ruiting sent me gave me some courage. The encouragement given by you people on fb, msn and tagboard helped alot. :D I'm beginning to like school! Yes, I feel that I've not made a wrong choice by going to hwachong, though I'm without rabbit and squirrel. I will still bug them every now and then!

HSK gathering today! I was so pissed off with my suntan lotion. I'm supposed to get tan, and not a sun burn! Argh! I have red cheeks, arms and legs. T_T
Nice. My face is a combination of red, black and white (area covered by fringe, will not pin it up in the near future!). Forget it. By right, I'm not suppose to go tan myself anymore and continue damaging my severely damaged skin. By left, I went tanning anyway and regretted my choice.

I love the talk I had with Yin Tian on the bus! It was sort of a relief to finally tell someone how I felt about my current life and stuff, since I didn't manage to see rab or squir around. I found it easy to talk to her about something that I wouldn't tell some people. I can't describe this, it's a kind of feeling and I think that's cause we're on the same frequency.

I want a girl talk with rab and squir soon!

PS: the picture makes me appreciate them even more.

With love.

27 January 2010

I'm supposed to feel happy. But I don't.
I'm not supposed to be upset. But I am.
In case you're wondering what triggered my sad mood, it's cos I'll be without my best buds. I'm missing them alr.

It's a stage we have to go through. Meeting new friends, keep in touch with old ones. I feel like a primary one kid all over again (though I'm not that young). Shit. I must force myself to not be anti-social. So, SMILE :D

JIAYOU SIYING. :]

With love.

26 January 2010

Tomorrow's the day.

Sawyi and I were supposed to be out today, but dearest Janelle woke up very very late in the morning, opps, sorry, it's afternoon already. Hence, the delay and delay. Okay, it was partly my fault too, since I had to be home early to escape naggings about being home late and going out all the time (I didn't go out all the time okay! -.-"). We're meeting to go to school together on the 28th. I'll bug her to wake up early. Alternatively I could wake up at four in the morning to morning call her, but I think it'll be a wasted effort since she can just go back to sleep again. God. I'm running out of things to do. I just ironed out my uniform. It's gonna be my last time wearing it on the 28th, I guess. Better make it look prim and proper. :D

I am feeling so damn nervous now. Silly, haven't I gone through this before? Haven't I reassured myself that no matter where I went I would be happy and still manage to kick an ass or two. I've gotten my hopes so high, it would definitely hurt like hell to fall from this height. Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.

Nevermind.

Tomorrow's gonna be a good, good day. As usual. :D

With love.