♥ A Kangaroo's Diary [袋鼠的日記]

Moving on from coding.

2012-01-27T20:56:00.000+08:00

Evelyn and I finished coding the surveys on the friday before CNY.

Suddenly, the wave of realization hit us. OMG WE FINISHED CODING?!?!

We're suppose to be doing it for 2 to 3 months, but the efficient duo i.e. Us finished in a month. Trollollollollol-ed and self-pwned.

BUT, lucky us, someone needed our help to sort out some admin/ paperwork stuff. We were saved for another two days, from the fate of becoming unemployed...

We're finally doing something else other than coding! Yay! (well, to break the seemingly boring repetitive cycle.)

So now we're doing data entry, we sit like this in front of the computer every single freaking day until we finish keying in everything. And we're seated in an isolated corner, me being even more isolated until nobody can see where I am. Wheeee! #foreveraloneinthecorner

Then we realised doing data entry is even faster than coding, especially since we can do it so fast,

THE END.

I don't know what the heck is wrong with me, no idea why I typed such a childish entry. Sigh. My brain cells are degenerating, what's left of it (which isn't a lot to begin with already). I just thought the pictures were cute.

Happy lunar new year!

2012-01-23T00:37:00.000+08:00

新祝福不断，新信息不停，新鲜事不少，新故事不老，新人做新事，新事新气象，新歌和新舞，新潮新风尚，新时代在飞跑，新年你我共醉倒。春节好！

世人都晓春节好，一年到头相聚闹；最是童年忘不掉，新衣新裤新鞋帽；亲朋好友拜年早，红包礼品不会少；祝福送到就是好，幸福安康新年好！

短信把年拜，收到笑颜开；龙年好运来，保准你发财；健康又实在，做人有情怀；亲情友情在；异性更喜爱；祝福都爱戴，保准你乐坏。祝你春节愉快！

点点心意点点情，信息声声传真情，祝福问候送不停，愿你天天好心情，亲情爱情样样行，工作顺心事业成，钞票天天赚不停，一生幸福笑盈盈！

Here are some cute + sweet messages I found when I was making cards for the entire office! Some of them are really funny but office inappropriate so those are the ones meant for my dears :D I also realised that I still have gunikey and bunny's Christmas cards with me!! Well I'm such a major blur queen when it comes to remembering things like this...

But! But! Muddleheaded me saw double rainbows the other day after getting my shoes soaked in rain water! I was just walking and when I looked up I saw the rainbows!

RAINBOWS! I have never seen one in my entire pathetic eighteen years of life and when I do, I saw two at one go! Made me super happy + contented despite being caught in the heavy downpour earlier on! Everything's gonna be awesome this year, I just know it, cause when you've hit rock bottom there's no other way to go except upwards!

Everything is going to be perfect! :D

As usual, with love,

Kangaroo ^_^

Pre-CNY Preparations.

2012-01-20T01:00:00.000+08:00

Part of the huge ass amount of "oranges" I made for the office! These alone took me quite some time to do up nicely, although I still can't make them look round and fat. They look short but fat but it's still cute right? Trollolololol...

A super short entry to end the night! Off to hit the bed!

GOOD NIGHT LOVELIES!

Is being pretty everything?

2012-01-18T19:06:00.001+08:00

English Translation

Oh oh oh ohohoh Oh oh oh
I’m beautiful You’re beautiful

Men are all the same these days
They only like pretty faces
Why is every single guy like that?

Other parts of me are prettier
But they’re not parts that can be seen
And everyone says that I am ugly

I want to be in love now
I want to be obviously in love
I want an honest person

Is being pretty everything?
Do you only look at the outer image?
Please stop now
and look at my heart (look look look)

Am I good-for-nothing?
Am I that unworthy?
That’s so not cool,
look at my heart (look look look)

Oh oh oh ohohoh Oh oh oh
I’m beautiful You’re beautiful

Do pretty faces feed you?
They become the same after a month
Why, why are guys like this?

“It’s always the ugly ones who complain more”
Jerks who say that, please piss off
The outside and inside aren’t always the same

I want to be in love now
I want to be obviously in love
I want a person who will only care for me

Is being pretty everything?
Do you only look at the outer image?
Please stop now
and look at my heart (look look look)

Am I good-for-nothing?
Am I that unworthy?
That’s so not cool,
look at my heart (look look look)

I am the Fat Cat -
are you curious about me?
Do you even know about the scars
you gave me with your toenails?
Look at my eyes,
look at my crying heart
Look at my two eyes
that are waiting for your love

Are you a hotshot?
Are you that much of a hotshot?
That’s so not cool,
look at yourself (look look look)

Is being pretty everything?
Do you only look at the outer image?
Please stop now
and look at my heart (look look look)

Oh oh oh ohohoh Oh oh oh
I’m beautiful You’re beautiful

Awkwardly true...

2012-01-14T11:35:00.000+08:00

So sad but true :X :( :'(

When I was young, I wanted to marry a policeman when I grew up, thanks to the hearty dosage of Hong Kong drama series involving tall, tanned, cute/ handsome cops with impeccable stamina and sense of logic. I always believed that policemen were like this until I grew up and realised I have never in my entire pathetic 16 years of life seen a policeman or two patrolling in my neighbourhood/ my grans neighbourhood! I know what you're thinking but those cool guys in smart uniform and caps patrolling in the MRT stations don't count. I don't think I'd stayed home too often either. :/ So... ://

For you kids out there...

2012-01-13T20:59:00.001+08:00

I was actually youtube-ing: "how to shuffle" when I chanced upon this video. For you people out there taking your PSLE/ N levels/ O levels/ even university exams and you need some motivation to do work, this is the song for you.

Every, everyday I'm studying ~

No more Monday blues

2012-01-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

All the lovely pictures from tumblr.

Don't lose touch

2012-01-08T20:50:00.000+08:00

They always say that people who truly care will try all means to stay in touch with you no matter what happens. But if they don't, does it simply mean that they don't care enough to make the effort to do so?

The weather has been horrible lately. It was radiating heat like there's no tomorrow yesterday and this morning but it suddenly rained in the afternoon (and ruining my mood effective to get out of the house). Luckily the rain stopped when I was suppose to get out. Happy again #easilycontented (LOL).

Gave into the temptation of having dinner outside (and thus spending more money, omg my hard earned money D:) because silly us went to camp at the Kopitiam while waiting for Chooni to finish work. HAHA super fail wth, never wait for someone in an eatery because you'll be tempted to eat! At least for a glutton like me...

Did some catching up at Mcd, sat there shamelessly for quite some time as Gene ate her downsized ice-cream cone. I CAN NOW KNOW SOME SECRETS MUHAHAHA :D Not. Chooni's lips were sealed huh, always trying to digress and divert our attention else where. And I'm not infatuated with anyone at the moment chooni! Don't ask already ~~~

I'm so blessed to be surrounded by positive people who can tolerate my whines. :>

Food is the best thing in the world

2012-01-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

The HOHOHO Sleepover :D

2012-01-01T07:43:00.002+08:00

BACKDATED POST.

PS: HO sounds like the hokkien pronunciation of good. So yeah. ;)

I was being randomly and surprisingly spontaneous when I suggested having a sleepover this year. We're all super busy now (although school, college life to be exact, has ended) working for moolahs. Still, I haven't seen them for about 2 years now. I guess everyone has changed in some way or another, but they are still the people who I care about alot. Love the girls! :D :D :D

Made cards! <3

Iris' favourite hangout place :S

Acting cute, as usual ;)

Being real spontaneous to make the airbed too ^^y

Trying on my clothes.. #likeafashionshow

Whose leg is this?!?! Hahaha.

(Part of) our supper

Unglam much hehe :B

They all love my wardrobe!

Last but not least,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Secrets.

2011-12-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

I've been reading sixbillionsecrets.

No matter how alone you feel, remember there's always someone out there who feels as lonely as you. Don't give up hope. They always say that tough times don't last, but tough people do. Hang on. Show yourself how strong you can be, even when you're alone.

Cause you gotta have faith in yourself sometimes.

My life is so repetitive.

2011-12-29T22:41:00.001+08:00

Wake up at six thirty.
Bathe, brush my teeth, have breakfast, get out of the house.
Reach the office, get a pancake (usually cheese flavour) and a cup of hot soya milk.
Take Mypaper.
Stroll into the office #likeaboss.
Read the news and have breakfast number 2 in the office #likeaboss.

It's eight thirty.

Start work.
Work.Work.Work.Work.Work.

Lunch.

Work.Work.Work.Work.Work.Work.Work.

Knock off.
Run for the bus.

Reach home at seven.
Cook dinner and watch tv simultaneously.
Go online, visit forums, stalk on fb, kaypo using twitter, listen to a bunch of useless songs, watch some MVs.

Bathe again.Chat on the phone.Sleep.

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y^__^Y

2011-12-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

Imy...

2011-12-22T00:10:00.001+08:00

You know, your name always pops out on the top of my 'friend' name list whenever I press that particular alphabet. Guess that speaks volume about how much I miss you... ...

Navi ft Tablo - I LOVE YOU

2011-12-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

Tmr's monday! Hold on! It'll be a wild ride for the week ahead before the Xmas break :D

Hardcore fangirl-ing

2011-12-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

I know this happened eons ago, but it's so awesome I gotta share it! <3

忍不住，想你了。

Level up!

2011-12-16T22:12:00.002+08:00

I have survived my first work week!!

Never thought I'd be so glad to spend my weekends lazing in bed until 8 am (yes that's a luxury for me) instead of waking up at the usual 6 am so that I can bathe, yadadadadada around and reach office before 8 am to eat breakfast.

One thing I realised is that office life doesn't suit me at all, although I manage to stay desk bound for the entire period of my work session, except to go visit the WC/ refill water. I'ma good girl okay! (Y) I have this compelling sense of anxiety to complete the work (at the pace target I set for myself) and do it perfectly (damn the perfectionist streak in me) but I guess taking a (much needed) break at times will make me more efficient than to do work when I'm tired (that's where all the silly mistakes and illogical stuff comes in).

In conclusion, work is fun because you enjoy what you do (even if you don't you should learn to enjoy it ^__^y yeahhhh) so time passes very quickly (you get paid at the same time too WAHAHAH MOOLAHHHHHH come to mama!!).

You may think that I'm nuts but, I WANT TO WORK MOREEEEE. (and earn more money duhhh).

Hehe. I really want to go on a graduation trip ~ Best to go where my heart is (justttttttttttttt). :D

PROM @SWISSOTEL

2011-12-14T17:59:00.001+08:00

with Class of 2011 :D

Initially I regretted buying the prom tickets, thought I could have spent it else where on some other things (e.g to fund my online shopping oops~) BUT never have I been so glad that I chose to (get myself persuaded by bunneh to) attend Prom. I would've totally regretted not going, so this one's for you bunz! ^^

Genie came over to chill out before prom starts! ^^ We were totally so chilled, when others have already finished their makeup Genie had just started painting her nails (I forced her to lol) while I bathed :S

To not waste our efforts of 1.5 hours of painting our faces (but our makeup was so subtle it pales/ vanish in comparison with the rest's). Still, I think there's a difference before/ after makeup right???

This is "before":

This is "after":

With my awesome sister, what will I do without unnie?!?! ^^

Not much difference/ No difference at all right =_="'

Bunneh!

Rocker (pervy) PW mate.

Choontardddddddd why so pretty ~ ^^

#damnfailshot MY CURLS! :D

#damnfailshot2 JOJO～

Encore pretty gunikey again!

BUNNEHHHHH. Pack me in your luggage please! :(

Shining superstar ~ Hahaha. :D

It was a bitter day.

2011-12-13T20:14:00.000+08:00

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But i guess i can’t help it right now
Even though the weather is great, my mood is not

I think you’re teasing me, and i get mad
I struggle because of these situations i can’t handle
The exact opposite of me, the world continues spinning as if nothing happened
You were living just fine
It’s not fair, this is unfair
People who look at me while passing by pity me
nothing goes right

I missed the place where i was supposed to get off at this morning
because i suddenly thought of you, i got off at a lonesome station
because it seemed lonely today of all days, tears just kept falling
i walked for a long time like that
i miss you, who i’ve been only hating, yet again
because the days when i was weak with no strength to hold onto you were so pathetic
a bitter day, it will all get erased like this
it will all be forgotten someday
i might smile when the time comes
but i guess i can’t help it right now
i can’t do anything
even though i’m sad because i’m thinking of you again right now
even though it will be difficult, i’ll keep trying to erase you

no matter what i say, it will sound like an excuse
even if i say that all of this was for you
because you were too good for me
because i was uncomfortable as if i were wearing clothes that didn’t match me
you’re beautiful, but you withered away from me
how do you think i felt while looking at that?
we should have just never started
i shouldn’t have looked into your eyes that first time
i thought i would be carefree once i let you go, but that wasn’t the case
my mind understands that we’ve separated
but my heart doesn’t want to accept it
missing you and trying to erase you, it repeats every day

i’ll be the one to take all the pain
i’d like it if you were just happy
so that the choice i make now doesn’t go to waste
so that i don’t regret it
i’ll always pray for you
a bitter day, it will all get erased like this
it will all be forgotten someday
i might smile when the time comes
but i guess i can’t help it right now
i can’t do anything
even though i’m sad because i’m thinking of you again right now
even though it will be difficult, i’ll keep trying to erase you
it’ll be forgotten little by little

when time passes, i’ll be able to smile and reminisce
instead of that common saying that time heals everything
tell me something that actually works
you can receive so much more love than what you got from me
you’re as beautiful as ever
you said we’d be together forever
in the end, we’re the same as others
a bitter day, it will all get erased like this
it will all be forgotten someday
that day will come

I want to sing KTV.

2011-12-11T18:01:00.000+08:00

Like now. :/

沒有想法　

有想法又能怎樣

只能寫部落格整晚

幾個流言安慰不了　

心裡的遺憾

沒有負擔　

原來也是種負擔

自由多得讓人心慌
你羡慕我　

那要不要跟我交換?

리쌍 - Turned off the TV

2011-12-05T11:27:00.001+08:00

(feat. Tasha, Kwon Jungyeol OF 10CM)

This is such a cute MV! ^___^(y)

The Ideal Job.

2011-12-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

It makes me wonder, how many people can actually find a work that they feel is 'great', or actually like what they are doing?

Post-As.

I honestly don't feel any significant difference. I don't know what my passion is (yet), I don't know what I want, I don't even know where I'm heading. I've got a rough idea but that's not good enough to take me anywhere. There's no sense of direction, just feeling, lost. The things that used to bother me don't anymore. I suppose that's good. But this feeling of 'not caring about anything anymore' scares me. I used to enjoy shopping so much, but now, I just don't feel the same joy I once felt when I receive a parcel or buy something that I once coveted after. I don't feel like dressing up to head out. I don't feel like going out to socialise, don't feel like reading, using the com is sucha bore too... Ranting seems... Idk, meaningless? (but ironically i'm sorta ranting now).

I guess I'll have to force myself out of the house. After all, I've one pitiful month left before my student pass expires and I want to surround myself with positive energy that I once had (and am going to regain). I've got myself a holiday job that should last for my (almost) entire holiday starting from Jan, a 8.30 to 5.30 job. I've got potential tutees who are interested (means I'll go back to hugging my book everyday, yay).

So there, we'll lose our sense of direction at times, but it shouldn't be enough to discourage us from orientating ourselves to operate better again. :)

I'll be fine. I'm strong enough to face what's coming up.

2011-12-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

Remember December (last year's)?

I feel a separation coming on
'Cause I know you want to be moving on
I wish it would snow tonight
You'd pull me in, avoid a fight
'Cause I feel a separation coming on
Just prove that there is nothing left to try
'Cause the truth I'd rather we just both deny
You kissed me with those open eyes
It says so much, it's no surprise to you
But I've got something left inside

Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say, don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember, don't surrender
You said you wouldn't let them change your mind
'Cause when we're together fire melts the ice
Our hearts are both on overdrive
Come with me, let's run tonight
Don't let these memories get left behind
Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say, don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember

I remember us together with a promise of forever
We can do this, fight the pressure
Please remember December
Don't surrender, surrender, surrender
Please remember, remember December
We were so in love back then
Now you're listening to what they say, don't go that way
Remember, remember December
Please remember, don't surrender

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Why fairytale like endings don't happen to you.

A) You're not pretty
B) You're not cute
C) You're not skinny (enough, by society's standards *rolleyes*)
D) All of the above

You don't know you're beautiful

2011-11-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

SHUCKS LA I got carried away with rotting for so many days.

I wasn't actually rotting away, rather, busy sending resumes and hoping for someone to hire me so that I can earn some money to go backpacking with my dears later/ save the money as part of my university fund. The latter sounds better. Sigh.

I think I've more or less decided on what I want to study in university. The sole question that reminds is WHERE.

Still me. Boring me.

2011-11-24T13:05:00.000+08:00

I still look pretty much the same.

In 2006.

The first attempt at camwhoring when Janelle came to sleepoverz and I was bored. This was my friendster picture!! LOL. I had less hair last time cause I 'layered' it? Popular hairstyle for lian-wannabes then. What's with the act cute face omg (dies a million times inside). And my eye bags?!?!?!

In 2007.

- speechless -

I must have been reallyyyyyyyy bored that day. -_- But hey! My eye bags aren't so bad anymore!!

In 2008.

I was in my Japan girl wannabe phrase. Had shoulder length hair and nasty thick bangs. Dotssssssssss. This was my blog picture! OMG. Lousy phone cam with 1.0 MB only. HEY! No eye bags!!!

In 2009.

I look damn fair like this, must post LOL. After leaving badminton, I didn't have to go under the sun that often thus I become less tanned + the toliet lighting was really good hahaha! 8D No eye bags too!!! Good old days after the O levels... ;D

BUT! Attack of the fat cheeks!! Sobzzzzz. ://

In early 2010.

Class chalet? I should think so. :)) Grew my hair longerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Started smiling with teeth! :P Put on braces!

2011.

It just says I need sleep. LOL.

【那些年，我們一起追的女孩】

2011-11-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

電影主題曲《那些年》
演唱：胡夏／作曲：木村充利／作詞：九把刀

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

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這些回憶我從來都沒有遺忘過，我只是把它們放在心中的一個角落裡，一直靜靜的保存著。

回憶中的「遺憾」怎麼都總是特別讓人心痛。。。

&I will always love you

2011-11-19T09:21:00.000+08:00

Time heals all wounds.
Wounds leaves obvious scars.
And scars evoke memories.

How can you say that with time, all those memories we had would fade away?

You're just lying to make your conscious feel better.
And me, you're just trying to fool me, for the one last time.

PUSH ON.

2011-11-12T13:33:00.000+08:00

Trying to be funny... It's not funny actually.

#nerdjokes

想自由

2011-11-10T17:13:00.006+08:00

By 林宥嘉 Yoga

想自由 = want to be free.

向前走

我不回頭

別再讓回憶給絆倒了

我會微笑的

至少我等著有一天我們會自由的

I'll march on.
I won't look back.
I'll smile.
I'll wait for the day that we'll be free.

We're going to be free. I can smell it! ^^

2011-11-09T16:23:00.000+08:00

I'm BOM-BIASED!

2011-11-03T22:13:00.009+08:00

指望

2011-10-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

怕不怕被拒绝 ?
怕不怕被省略?
你怕不怕被沦落在宿命中妥协?
当真爱宣告从缺 , 骄傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎
尽管你抱歉忏悔, 真心一旦坠跌就不能飞... ...

别指望我谅解 , 别指望我体会
爱不是点头就能挽回.
快乐或伤悲没什麽分别
心碎到终点会迎刃而解

别指望我谅解, 别指望我体会
爱不是注定要填你的缺
太多的是非来不及杜绝
更不想依恋这残缺的美
残缺的迂回

I did that because I could see your pain.
But you were oblivious to mine.

Determination will get you through this.

2011-10-28T22:46:00.003+08:00

The truth is, you don't need to be smart to get you through your 'A's.

You need a hell lot of

DETERMINATION.

Studying gives you bad skin and dark eye circles with complimentary eye bags. GAWDDDDDDD! D: That's me. In case you forgot... LOL.

Tired.

2011-10-26T21:26:00.005+08:00

So we've heard of the story of how the tortoise outrun the rabbit.

I shall be that tortoise. It's an indisputable assumption.

It doesn't matter if you come in first (actually it does, duhhh.)
It matters more that you finish with your personal best.

I will surviveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

My god. Where's my sanity!

Super cheery song! :D

2011-10-23T23:11:00.001+08:00

OKAY. Stop staring at weird places. I caught you, didn't I?!

I want her red studded sneakers! So prettayyyyyyy! ^^

Lemming! I'm attempting to exercise but doing random dance moves to the song. Gah. DO NOT GAIN WEIGHT! I don't want to buy new jeans! :(((((( I've no money to too! :(((((((

2011-10-17T12:59:00.000+08:00

Hurhur.

I think it's funny.

My sense of humour is approaching zero now.

(HAHAHA! GET IT?!?!)

Fml.

-____________-

Never a right time to say goodbye.

2011-10-15T17:54:00.002+08:00

Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it's just
It's just...
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright....

Yeahhhh...
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa...
Listen..

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one
to tell you a lie so

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can
to get you to understand
'cause I know

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way
I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can
to get you to understand
'cause I know

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way
I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh
There's never a right time

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way
I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way
I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

2011-10-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

Some kind blackjack complied this... 2NE1's potential US debut song! :D

One of the many late night suppers

2011-10-08T09:30:00.000+08:00

I'm amazed at even myself at my ability to pig on junk food... Pure calories!

After sleeping early (AT FREAKING 8 PM! First time in my JC life lollllz) yesterday night, I felt recharged and ready to attack my work. I've to get this right. There are no second chances in life (in saying so, I'm making a hasty generalisation).

And it's a red herring (very fishy) when I typed the above lines that are totally in no way related to the pictures shown above (or supposedly so). Do you feel like smacking me nao?!?! I just drowned myself in the Great Planet of Great Pleasure ~~~ 8D

And I am not making any sense!!

Okay...
I'm going to recharge by babysitting or something. My cousins are flying to Thailand tmr... PACK ME IN YOUR LUGGAGE!!!

I'm stuck on a little red dot. STUCK. STUCKKKKKK. *whines*

Gah! My homemade Mcd inspired hotcakes (success!) are calling out to me to devour them. (LOL)

Till next time when I have my sanity back... BYE!

To trust or not to trust.

2011-10-06T21:35:00.003+08:00

I don't wanna see you cry.
I don't wanna be there when you tell me a lie so,
Just let it go,
Can you?

对自己的表现失望是难免的

付出了这么多

却得不到相同的回报

会害怕会恐惧

好不容易建立起来的信心渐渐被摧毁... ...

但也有失望

哭了累了发泄了

就应该重新站起来了

我们可以休息但是不可以放弃!!

放弃就真的什么机会都没有了... ...

加油

最后一次相信付出 = 回报

Nutrients for the eyes!

2011-10-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

林更新！！：）

Handsome a not?!?! :D

Believe me, eyecandies can make you very very very happy. Hurhur. And it's more affordable than shopping! :P I've been shopping (online) way too much. Gotta curb my spendings! If not I reckon I'll have to live on bread for the next month or two if this madness goes on without being restrained. Oh well. I'm really stressed, I have to vent it out somehow. Else I'd go mad, honest.

2011-10-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

I'm still suffering from post-bbjx syndrome. OMG. I must not start watching any other drama now. Or rather, I can't bring myself to watch anything now. This drama is so freaking awesome the rest pale in comparison T____T

多一步的擦肩，就步步沦陷。。。
明知是祸为何还不知所措？

结局好虐哦，每次想到它也会跟着心痛。

突然想看你的脸，熟悉的感觉。
放不下也忘不掉。。。

it's Friday

2011-09-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

Where did we go wrong?
Our love was like so strong.
Don't forget.

Please, don't take me for granted.

I don't know how I'm gonna do this, but I just need you now.

I'm so addicted to you.

2011-09-28T19:45:00.003+08:00

Slowly but surely, I'll kick my addiction to you.

Slowly but surely. :)

I'm not lovesick. Justttttttt wanted to whine a little.

Teehee! I'm done! XD

(Un)written rules of the world.

2011-09-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

You and your lies.

2011-09-24T09:56:00.000+08:00

MV's so pretty! :D Gotta prepare to go out alr ^^

Nothing but pain.

2011-09-22T21:13:00.011+08:00

It's not worth my pain. But I can't blame anyone. It was ultimately my own choice. The recurring pain is a constant reminder. Constant pain.

I might have ran excessively these days, by accident. Once I start running, I can't seem to stop. To continue running as if all the deadlines were chasing behind me. Too much, is always not a good thing. Unless it's mugging of course. Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.

Have.
To.
Stop.
Running.

I feel so utterly bitter and broken. I hug myself alot more these days, fold my arms like some emo kid. I speak so much rubbish. I'm so afraid that if I didn't do that, I'd disintegrate and lose composure. I'm afraid I'll start crying. Especially after chem paper. Idk, the subject which I spend the most time is ironically the subject that I screw up the most. The more I study, the more insecure I become.

听秋风　吹起遍地叶落
萧瑟之中　回荡沉默问候
才疯过　在那荒凉战业之中　
曾留下些什麼

朦胧中却听见　遥远的天边
歌颂著爱恋
穿越云雾的月　你给的从前
千年以前的心碎

泪狂奔不悔　冻结所有思念阵雨在蔓延　浇灭谁的誓言
回首尽是叹　盼的我都忘了伤
还在我身上狂妄
不后悔爱的疯狂...

2011-09-19T22:28:00.008+08:00

Vainpot.

Lemmingggggggggggg!

步步惊心

2011-09-18T13:10:00.002+08:00

Latest drama craze :D

作为一个朝九晚五的普通白领，除了模样长得挺招人喜爱，现年二十多岁的张晓和周围其他忙忙碌碌的都市人基本没什么区别。张晓谈过几次无疾而终的恋爱，谈不上深刻却也对她有点影响。做着一份不喜爱也不讨厌的工作，为了薪水再多一些位置再高一些，她也能整天乐呵呵地投入到与战争一样残酷的职场斗争中去。她按部就班地计划着自己的未来的人生——房子，旅游，恋爱。

在张晓的前半生里，无论她做的还是她想的，几乎都与普通人一样，为了更好的生活奋斗着，乐此不疲。但张晓的内心总有着一种牵动，她自己也说不出个名堂来，只觉得冥冥之中，似乎还存在着另一种生活……

那一天，张晓的命运被一场车祸彻底改写。她眼看着那辆失控的卡车将自己的灵魂撞出了躯体，而她，既没有进医院也没有进天堂，却是被撞进了清朝的宫廷中。就像铺天盖地的小说里写的那样，张晓的灵魂跨过时间的隧道，在一个叫马尔泰.若曦的十六岁清朝女孩的体内，重生了……

时年，康熙第四十三。天下太平，但一场震动历史的“九龙夺嫡”正在暗潮涌动。权利的厮杀，爱情的灼烧，在被无限放大的历史舞台上，张晓，不，是马尔泰?若曦的命运无可避免的与众位亲王阿哥们交织在一起……
她知道自己不该卷入这场九王夺嫡的争斗中，可心不由己，因为这里有她所爱的，也有爱着她的……

若曦最后选择的究竟是温润如玉的八阿哥，还是面冷心热的四阿哥，又或是出人意料的其他人? 等历史的风云过后，可以陪她看夕阳西下、云卷云舒的又将是谁？

2011-09-17T22:46:00.029+08:00

Maybe it's just me

All the 'what if's.

ruined by education

2011-09-13T22:20:00.032+08:00

I think the smiley is a good representation of my facial expression now. We are being educated. We are receiving an education. But what does an education mean? I went to google (brillant use of technology XD) some quotes from some famous people. OMG. This sounds so GP-ish. I've bolded some which imho are pretty interesting. :)

Horace Mann: A human being is not attaining his full heights until he is educated.

Russell Baker: An educated person is one who has learned that information almost always turns out to be at best incomplete and very often false, misleading, fictitious, mendacious - just dead wrong.

Anatole France: An education isn't how much you have committed to memory, or even how much you know. It's being able to differentiate between what you know and what you don't.

Will Durant :Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance.

Oscar Wilde: Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught.

Daniel J. Boorstin: Education is learning what you didn't even know you didn't know.

Aristotle: The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet.

Ernest Renan: The simplest schoolboy is now familiar with truths for which Archimedes would have sacrificed his life.

Sydney J. Harris: The whole purpose of education is to turn mirrors into windows.

Victor Hugo: He who opens a school door, closes a prison. Walt Disney: I would rather entertain and hope that people learned something than educate people and hope they were entertained.

Heinrich Heine: If the Romans had been obliged to learn Latin, they would never have found time to conquer the world.

Abigail Adams: Learning is not attained by chance, it must be sought for with ardor and diligence.

Ezra Pound: Real education must ultimately be limited to men who insist on knowing, the rest is mere sheep-herding.

This is the quote which I liked best. It makes alot of sense, doesn't it? :D

Abu Bakr: If an ignorant person is attracted by the things of the world, that is bad. But if a learned person is thus attracted, it is worse.

And finally,

Albert Einstein: The only thing that interferes with my learning is my education.

"Do you agree?"

God bless.

2011-09-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

For those who died in the 911 attacks.

Pray.

2011-09-09T11:38:00.014+08:00

Anxiety attack

And then I eat more to counter the stress.
Then I get fat.

FML.

I'm trapped in my own homemade prison.
You can call up everyone, but nobody's gonna pick up the phone.
Erratic sleeping patterns and studying habits, that's why.
Baby you'll have to suck it up and be strong. Be strong.

I only have 2 feet.

2011-09-06T21:40:00.004+08:00

Shoes! Shoes! I want them I need them!

Since my wardrobe is exploding, I shall focus on other areas available for moi to collect things. Hehe! Omg my bank acc is bleeding like nobodys business. :ppp I'm much much much happier now than before! Guess there's just someone about school that turns me off straight away, or maybe that sentiment diffused over from geneeeee. God I haven't start on gene related stuffs yet. Oh well. But I'll get it done somehow.

Yes I'm fucking superficial! Because there's so little to look forward to now. Everyone's so caught up in their own filter bubbles. Pop! This is reality man. Like it or not :(((

Dress up! Believe it or not, you can actually gain confidence from that, provided that you wear stuff that suits your personality and body type luh. No point trying to squeeze into that uber small jeans you had eons ago. Trust me, I learnt it the hard way :(((

Well... Presenting, shoes! :DDD

Absolutely lemming for these shoes. I love heels. I realised that my preference is pretty simple/ small detailings when it comes to heels. Guess I prefer attention on my clothes LOL. I love all of them! Especially the wedges! Which girl doesn't, honestly. Heels always gives a more polished feel, makes you look taller (an advantage which I don't need/ want ://), elongates your legs endlessly (I need this!! :D).

I'm so afraid of buying heels cause I can't bear the wtf looks given especially when I'm on the bus/ mrt. :( Sigh. But seeing others wear them makes me want a pair for myself too!

Sheesh! I know I should be studying BUT, shoes de-stress me okay! ;(

Nights! :D
Sleep early ~~to grow taller!~~ to prevent looking like a panda the next day! :D

Working hard!

2011-09-02T00:03:00.004+08:00

xoxo,

2011-08-31T21:46:00.027+08:00

What's life without music?
Random train of thoughts.
Incoherent. There's not much link there.

因為絕望所以學會祈求
我也不想讓心痛對我欲取欲求
我在黑暗之中尋找幸福的下落
等待原來那顆流星劃過我天空
總要在說完再見以後才開始明白愛多濃
今晚你想念的人是不是我

想要愛到最後的最後
想要和你再一次牽手

我想念的人會不會懂....

We'll only realise what we've lost when it's gone.
Tonight, I won't be the one you're missing.
My fault. I let you go.
But I'm regretting it.
I want to undo everything from the start. But, it's too late.

Only gonna break break your heart.
Told ya right from the start.

So goodbye baby, goodbye.

On a side note,

2011-08-28T21:51:00.010+08:00

Craving for...

Happy cake!

Do you feel hungry now! :D

We can't please everyone.
We live in our own filter bubbles, whining, doing nothing constructive.
I am just as tired as you are.
I dont know I'm standing for anymore. I just dont.

2011-08-25T00:57:00.005+08:00

天降大任于斯人也，
必先苦其心志，劳其筋骨，饿其体肤，空乏其身，
行指乱其所为，所以动心忍性，曾益其所不能。

——《孟子》

2011-08-22T23:09:00.006+08:00

내가제일잘나가!

내가제일잘나가!!

내가제일잘나가!!!

I am the best, awfully cute chipmunk version! :D
It has the amazing ability to cheer me up even in the worst mornings. :)

We don't need reminders of how fucking fucked up we are. It's not like we don't want to do well, get good grades and go on to some awesome university with some sort of scholarship that we can bloody be proud of to flaunt to the rest of the universe. It's not. We want to ace it too. In case no one realises, we feel like a bunch of fucked up delinquents. Stop accusing. It's a tedious journey. But still, with so much love and hope (ironic), we'll get there eventually.

2011-08-19T22:18:00.013+08:00

I wanna live on a mountain.

Not really actually. I just want to go somewhere with a good view. Somewhere high up, even though I'm afraid of heights. People living on the ground level are so bloody scary. So many stalkers + weirdos. I want to stay away. Somewhere far away, where no one knows who I am, where no stalker can continue to stalk me.

As I'm typing this, I'm damn pissed off. Do not continue reading. It's a bitching post below. Pissed off kangaroo ahead. Be afraid. Very, very afraid.

--------------------------

到了这个时候我都不知道该说什么

生气吗?

不你不值得我生气

害怕吗?

不你的手段我们都清楚你已经没有牌打了

讨厌吗?

不本来就不喜欢哪儿来的讨厌

从开始的 "烦" 到 "厌烦 , 厌恶" 到最后只觉得你太可悲了

只会装可怜装委屈

你还会装什么

够了

真的

你瞪够了吗

牢记我们的一举一动了吗

整天鬼鬼祟祟跟在我们后面

想偷听我们说有的没的

这能给你什么满足感吗?

没人理你也是我们的错哦

我们凭良心说我们根本就没向别人说你的是非

常常以 "性格不合" 为理由草草敷衍别人

我们忍

可是做人不能这么过分

你已经越界很久了

拜托别这么幼稚

2011-08-17T16:42:00.016+08:00

Halfway through the week!

It's tough. But don't lose hope! I can do this! If you don't believe you can, you can never do it. The worse thing about losing is not losing itself, but the way you gave up and say "I can't do this any more". Keep going! Stressed! They keep throwing us work to do, I can't squeeze in enough time to revise everything!

I am not going to be overwhelmed by all the work!
Yeah! (y)

2011-08-15T20:22:00.014+08:00

You can't buy happiness.

But you can buy ice cream!
Or mochi! :D

What's better than some yummy food to ~~console a broken heart~~ kick the monday blues away?! #justsayin. the atmosphere is really apt. Eating ice cream (mochi!!), listening to sentimental songs and watching tv. I suspect watching Korean dramas made me more susceptible to tears even towards the slightest thing. I, well, used to be more hardhearted. Booooo. But the dramas are soooo good. A temporary escape from reality.

My second refuge :)

-------
Can't turn on the tv without something that'll remind me.
But I'll be okay.
So I thought I couldn't live without chu.
I didn't know where to turn to.

2011-08-12T23:11:00.005+08:00

Truth exposed on a Friday night.

In every book, there’s this girl, and this boy.
They fall in love; they don’t want to admit it.
They go out; they love to be together.
They get in a fight, being apart tears them to pieces, they confess true love; they’ve never been happier.

How come authors never tell the truth?

...............................................................................................

It has been exactly x months since this whole thing started. I've spent y hours thinking about you, seeing you thrice in my zzz. Totally wtf. I tried and I tried to get you out of my mind. I really did. But it doesn't get better. Missing you became easier as each day goes by. The little little things that remind me of you, like the silly song or a certain keyword. So many things to constantly remind me. Wish I could press rewind, rewrite certain lines. I won't be ice-cold anymore. I'll respond. I'll go and play basketball with you. I'll race against you, even when I'm not so fit so you'll slow down to match my pace.

PS I'm still not over you.

But you've moved on, haven't you? So I promise myself tonight's gonna be the last night I miss you. I've got to move on and go my own way too.

Cheers, to letting go of something I never really once had.
Well, then again, we always want to have something that we don't/ can't have.
Rebel, rebel.

On a side note, my memories are getting worse these few days. I can't seem to remember what I do/ say. Tsk tsk. I even forgot that I finished my correlation tut way before Mrs Tam went thru it (BEAMS BRIGHTLY). Major accomplishment! ^^ Alright, but the downside is I forgot how I did it alr. -_-

Oh, and it's 11.11. Make a wish ;)

You are, a millon miles away.

我们的故事
就在这里写下句号

2011-08-09T21:59:00.001+08:00

Love;

Makes the world go round.

#justsaying

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! :D
HAPPY STUDYING FOR TESTS! -kena slapped a thousand times-

Kekeke, I'm exceptionally high after going out, might post some pictures later if I can finish revising my work :))

2011-08-08T17:21:00.002+08:00

Sarah ho/ huaimin's no. 1 fan!!! XD

OMG and my first ever green dress has just arrived. Hope I didn't gain too much weight! HEHE!

2011-08-05T19:24:00.001+08:00

Friday's cooking session!

I'm going to do my best to produce something similar to those above. They look so cute and yummy eh! Looking at them makes me drool all over my keypad wth o_o

Sometimes we need an avenue for escaping. The smell of food makes me happy and less moody. Sometimes, we may be overwhelmed by things, we lose hope, we lose confidence, we become fearful. At times like these, we need inspiration. Even more so now when there are so manynvoices telling us that we're so stupid. Prove them all wrong.

我從十一樓跳下去

http://www.blogger.com/goog_976834112
http://www.blogger.com/goog_976834112
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/lux542/24266697

It's a very interesting comic, written in mandarin though. :) personally find it very inspiring. :) why compare what we don't have with what they have? Life isn't fair and will never be fair.

Btw, it's the seventh month now. I appear to be more susceptible to dirty things during this month. I'm gonna run home like a mad kangaroo (jump, rather) everyday. My legs are getting toner with all these exercises. Bunny and gunikeys too. I have awesome friends, even in jc. Awwwwwww. Thanks girls! What will I do without you two bodyguards. Heh.

I'm going to pray this weekend. Hope all things unpleasant shoo far far away from me. Tyvm.

2011-08-02T16:14:00.030+08:00

I wanna be pretty.

Don't lie to me, cause I know.

I just know.

BELATED POST ALERT! :B

2NE1 has always been my major love! :D I refused to sleep before I listened to their new song, UGLY before I sleep. Hehe. I think I'm pleasantly surprised by the theme of the song and its style! It's even better than lonely, I am the best and honestly, I think most girls can relate to this very well! My brother hates this song though *bashes him up*. I think it's difficult for guys to relate to this song. Well, well ~ He prefers SNSD I guess. Girls with attitude scares him off XD

Yup. Who doesn't want to be that 'popular' girl who's pretty, skinny, smart, sporty and seemingly perfect? It's something girls always desire, deep down inside, secretly. So this song is for the girl with insecurities but fakes her confidence; for the girl with self-esteem issues cause her looks 'ain't good enough'; for the girl with body image issues cause she's not skinny enough for this society; for the girl who's branded nerdy and deemed unattractive; for all the girls who can relate to this song. I don't know about you, but I can.

CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but
I don’t like it
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but
No one is listening
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh x 2

[DARA] Why am I this ugly
What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect
I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now
I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escape
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily
My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you
The cold thorns inside that patronizing gaze suffocate me

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern
I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout out
This world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone
I’m all alone x 2

There is no such thing as warmth
There is no one by my side

All alone
I’m all alone x 2
I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth
Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

[CL] I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prety
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

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Hangul Lyrics

Credits: allfordrama.com + softgirlyrics

밝게 웃어보지만
내 맘에 들지 않아
난 예쁘지 않아 아름답지 않아
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

노랠 불러보지만
아무도 듣지 않아
난 예쁘지 않아 아름답지 않아
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

난 왜 이렇게 못난 걸까
어떡하면 나도 너처럼 환하게 웃어볼 수 있을까
또 화가나 왜 늘 완벽하지 못해
이 깨진 거울 속 못난 모습을 향해 탓하기만 해

쳐다보지마 지금 이 느낌이 싫어 난
어디론가 숨고만 싶어 벗어 나고 싶어
이 세상은 거짓말

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

날 쉽게 이해한다고 하지마
못 생기고 삐뚤어진 내 마음이 널 원망할지도 몰라
말 시키지마 난 너와 어울리지 못해
그 잘난 눈빛 속 차가운 가식이 날 숨막히게 해

다가오지마 너의 관심조차 싫어 난
어디론가 떠나고 싶어 소리 치고 싶어
이 세상은 거짓말

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

All alone I’m all alone
All alone I’m all alone
따뜻함이란 없어
곁엔 아무도 없어

All alone I’m all alone
All alone I’m all alone
I’m always all alone
따뜻함이란 없어
곁엔 그 누구도 날 안아줄 사람 없어

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

2011-07-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

Why you should sleep early.

Especially on Saturday nights. Omo.
I was doing chemistry while listening to mp3 when I should be sleeping (already). While reading organic chem, this song started playing.

"I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart."

FML. Seriously. -__-

Made me awfully irritated with the biggest WTF moment of my life. And this is not the first time it has happened. IS THIS DESTINY THEN?!?! D: D: D:
No! I don't believe this! I'm going to seduce chem and then break it apart after the 'A's. Grrrrr. Fml i sound like a mugger.

Maybe I am - mugger in the making, do not disturb

2011-07-27T01:19:00.002+08:00

It's a quater after one.
I'm all alone and I miss you now.

So many things to say.
So many things to do.
If only I could turn back the hands of time.

-slaps self-

Insomnia sucks. I need to sleep now so that I won't fall asleep tmr, a damn long day with four and a half hours straight of lessons before there's finally a break to save the strangled soul and starving tummies. I can do this baby. When you think your life sucks, be grateful. There's bound to be someone out there who has it harder than you.

I'm going to listen to Yoga Lin's songs and hope sleep'll come soon. Hurry, to lalaland. :)

2011-07-23T10:09:00.013+08:00

Awesome saturday to go and play badminton. To do what I love the most, even though my skills may have decomposed beyond recognition, but at least, it's something I will enjoy doing for as long as my hip allows me to. The feeling of perspiration dripping is like no other. I haven't moved my lazy ass in a long while. This is going to mark the start. I'm going to exercise i.e. play badminton as often as I can and am allowed to. That's true love baby, true love :D

I need to exercise for at least 3 hours before I feel the endophines working their magic. Says pretty much about how moody I am these days. I sound fucking self-centred, and am probably am. Just let me vent my frustrations. I swear I'll go mad otherwise. Maybe I'm already mad -_-

Tata.

2011-07-21T17:17:00.001+08:00

POST BLOCKS MOOD.

This is so belated, but...

I'm left with nothing but sighs.
I feel so empty and hollow.
Who doesn't want to do well?

繁华似梦一场空，世事无常何去从？
真的，假的，累了所以不去猜了。
好了，算了，别去在意了。
伤了，痛了，所以不想理了。
可是，为什么还是那么疼呢？

I keep sleeping for extended periods of time. Eight, ten, twelve, fourteen hours. At the end, I still feel fucking tired and fucked up. Irony.

They all think that she's so lucky, that one lucky girl.

But if she's truely fortunate, how come those tears come falling down at night?

2011-07-20T23:50:00.001+08:00

Hate you

I'm fine living without you.
You bet I'll be, better than ever.
Without you.

2011-07-14T22:48:00.009+08:00

Tired of waiting.

Half-day!

The week's barely over, I can't take it anymore. I don't know what I'm more annoyed at - the slow pace of me doing my tutorials (hint: the lesson we skipped today) or the inability to recall facts accurately. I'm not asking too much out of myself right? I'm very disturbed by the inability to remember stuff.

Baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too.
Baby, I, just gotta be next to you.
Fb is bad - it feeds my useless, aimless addiction.

2011-07-10T21:45:00.003+08:00

Sunday.

BOOOOOOOO!

Did my pictures scare you! :D I realised that there's hardly pictures of me in my blog, ironic, given the fact that I will almost always post a picture of two in my entries. So here's an entry with my (half-hidden) face in it! Pardon the chubby face, I was eating cheesecake when attempting to camewhore like a pro #failttm :P

The huge sunglasses (they are too big for my face zzz!) are my latest love! I'm sudden in love with sunglasses. I want more of these! #uselessttm Did I mention that I'm tweeting alot more to share/ vent? Heh. :)

I've just reached home from a day of more shopping! I've been shopping for 3 days straight, with brand new loots almost everyday! Can you tell that my wallet's in a pretty bad shape now? :P Bought a pretty pink shrug, pretty but pricy though :*( I must wear it out more often to offset the fixed cost ~ *kena slapped*

Btw, in less than 2 hours and 15 minutes...

2011-07-04T00:12:00.013+08:00

When the clock strikes twelve.

There's like some curse and you become hungry automatically. Like what I am feeling now. Worse, there's nothing in my fridge left *guilty* except some fruits. I'll just take it as I'm trying to salvage the state of my skin by eating more fruits (with a lil sinful dose of mayoooo!).

All my papers are screaming at me. You'll never be good enough!
진짜??

진짜 :((((((((

2011-07-02T19:35:00.003+08:00

옥수수!!
내가 좋아하는!!
nomnomnomnomnomnomnomnom!

Taking a break from the work. Have a break, eat some corn! (fried with salted butter omgggggg) It's the beginning of a new month now, but my wallet's in really bad shape :( I have to control myself.

SHOPPING BAN!

Maybe after the GSS. Teeheehee! I feel so guilty! D: online shopping is any wallet's worst enemy, espeically for those as 宅 aka prefer-to-stay-home-kind-of-girl. It offers you the awesome convenience of shopping without stepping out of your house. Teeheehee! Okay. It's official. I have gone nuts from revising. Sigh. It's a vicious cycle. Stress = shop = broke = study = stress = shop = broke... It goes on for FOREVER!!

Food keeps me calm. I NEED FOOD but not the fat that comes with it D:
Please, stop saying I'm fat. Then again, as if I'm bothered LOL. Contradicting myself. *flash mirror in front of you* Am I still fat to you naooooo?

2011-07-02T18:06:00.000+08:00

We're crying till we're laughing.

아파...
통증이 계속 다그치는...
아파요..

2011-06-27T17:29:00.010+08:00

COMEBACK STAGE.

2NE1.

I am the Best.

I love CL's jacket! It's so damn cool! I don't like their hair, especially Dara's. Looks weird. :// The song has a uber bollywood vibe to it. It has got a hell lot of attitude man, but I prefer the more soothing + slow songs like lonely and it hurts. Hehe. Emo songs FTW :D

Back to Bio. D:

Hwaiting!

2011-06-26T13:29:00.004+08:00

Off for the exams. D:

In the meantime, listen to 2ne1's new song, I'm the best.

[CL]
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god

[BOM]
Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of a killer
alright
This body is second to no one
alright

[DARA]
You’re following behind me but
I’m only running forward
I jump on top of the table you’re sitting at
I don’t care

[CL]
If you touch me you won’t be able to handle it
I’m hot hot hot hot fire
Before I flip something over
Please can someone stop me

[MINJI]
I open my closet and
Put on the freshest outfit
The reflection of my face in the mirror
I carefully check it over
Right now it’s 8
I’m supposed to meet up at 8:30
Tonight I set out with bold steps

[CL]
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best

[MINJI]
Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of fabulous
alright
Even if you were me, you’d be envious of this body
alright

[BOM]
Guys are turning around to look at me
Girls are following me
Being looked down on in the spot
I’m sitting at, every day is tiring

[DARA]
Pretending to be an athlete, this snobby
Clumsy Playa
Like you’re a flat tire
I’ll dump you good for people to see

[CL]
I refuse to be compared
I’m telling you the truth
If we’re talking about my value, I’m a
Billion dollar baby
People who know a thing or two
They all know it so ask them
Grab anyone and ask them
Who is the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best

[CL]
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god

2011-06-20T19:16:00.001+08:00

You have no idea how happy it makes me when I see a lone hit from the country where I left my heart behind. Was that you or some random person? I'm sick. Love sick. Lol. Just saying.

Six more days left. I'm fucking scared so much so that I'm spewing out expletives. :((

既然我还幸运的活着我当然要更尽力去快乐
你没变我没变我们到最后才明白着一点
只可惜我们俩拥抱着不同的心愿

我是我自己的
我的心是我自己的不会再给你了
我会更快乐

看不到碰不到听不到找不到
回头的理由，相爱的证据，坚持的勇气

2011-06-17T15:23:00.005+08:00

誠實地想你
By 郭采潔

世界忽然變形　忽然很安靜
無助的我一秒間失去重心
聽你不停為我擔心　看你不停離我而去
你要我照顧自己

是我做了什麼　讓天使生氣
還是忘了做什麼　幸福遠離
也許該要真的相信有種愛叫遠遠關心
痛卻又哽住呼吸

我　用狂奔　用無力　用惡夢　去想你
我討厭命運驕傲的神情　
嘲笑我沒半點權利決定

我　用痛哭　用回憶　用深愛　去想你
去體會什麼是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇氣　誠實地想你

是我做了什麼　讓天使生氣
還是忘了做什麼　幸福遠離
也許應該要真的相信是有種愛叫遠遠關心
痛卻又哽住呼吸

我　用狂奔　用無力　用惡夢　去想你
我討厭命運驕傲的神情
嘲笑我沒半點權利決定

我　用痛哭　用回憶　用深愛　去想你
去體會什麼是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇氣　誠實地想你

是不是擔心我怕黑不敢前進
那顆本來沒墮落的流星　才拼命燒亮了自己

我　用狂奔　用無力　用惡夢　去想你
我討厭命運驕傲的神情
嘲笑我沒半點權利決定

我　用痛哭　用回憶　用深愛　去想你
去體會什麼是迫不得已
越懂才越有勇氣　誠實地想你

2011-06-14T20:48:00.002+08:00

Of all things to forget, I forgot that I still have 14 exercises of Issues and Ideas undone. I conveniently chuck it out of my sight after I completed my book review LOL omgzzzzz. D: Sigh. Ok. Do not panic. I will survive lol hehe. I sound like a lunatic. :(

I've been digging out emo songs from youtube. :) Technology saves lives. *kowtow~* Haha, enjoy! :D

如果你也听说:

我最親愛的:

都什麼時候了:

2011-06-11T09:45:00.006+08:00

I'm craving this deep-fried goodness for breakfast after eating breakfast, lol. Definitely unhealthy and bad for my digestive system. :( Sinful. But I'll still eat it anyway. I think it'll be healthier if I make it myself but I'm uber lazy! Where can I find the nicest spring rolls in Singapore? I want to hunt for it! Hehe!

I changed my mind. I want a Happy Meal. LOL :D
Easier, more convenient and fast. Effortless. :)

The juniors are climbing Tahan probably today. OMG jealous max D: I'll pray that they have a safe journey there and back. Im probably going to be sleepless till they come back fml motherly instincts lol fml even more zzz. Can't wait for them to share with us their wonderful experience! Me wants it too! But unfortunately, I may only be able to accomplish it in my next life... Sigh. The glory will always be ours, but the pain that remains will always be mine. Sigh. I sound like some old soul with no teeth :B

Okay, time to catch up on much needed sleep! :)

2011-06-07T19:57:00.000+08:00

爱情就像颗洋葱。

你一層一層的剝，

一邊流淚一邊剝。

為了得到他的心。

剝完以後才發現，

其實他是沒心的。

2011-06-05T19:32:00.000+08:00

First week of June hols is coming to an end. Three words to sum it up.

OH MY GOD.

May I add another three letters?

FML.

There are still heaps of work on my desk (I'm especially guilty about GP, Chem and Math) cause I've been focusing on getting my revision package done for those subjects that I have to come back for first. Damn it. It's really going to be a Great Pain in the coming three weeks, the Evil tickling of the clock will not slow down for me to catch up. I'm worried about burning out.

Sigh. Reading TCM related books keep me sane. I wonder if I should really take up this subject in university. If I do, I'll have to go overseas (China, I think) cause they have better facilities IMO.

My new favourite song! :))

别傻了。
不要执着这种没有结果的爱情。
它只会让你继续的为他流泪。

放下，
让你的心不再承受这种无谓的沉痛。

好好爱自己吧。

2011-06-04T14:34:00.003+08:00

這份感情卑微的可悲。
我們之間甚麼都沒有。

喜歡。。。
是甚麼。
我們都說不出。

喜歡。。。
僅僅是一中感覺而已嗎？
一份說不出的感覺。。。還是幻覺？

超過了友情，卻還不到愛情。
找不到相愛的證據。
找不到任性的理由。

你快樂所以我也快樂。
簡簡單單的，希望你也好。

或許這舊是傳說中的單戀。。。
僅此而已吧。
都該停止了吧。。。

我要更快樂。
所以選擇放手。

It's okay baby please don't cry.
But baby I cried...

아파요...
딘 딩신을종아해요.
진짜! ㅠㅡㅠ

PS. I feel artsy (don't slap me) :) #justsaying #fact

I spy with my little eye,

2011-05-30T18:20:00.009+08:00

COOKIE MONSTERS!

Baking! :D

One of the greatest joy in life. I haven't had the privilege of doing so for such a long time! I hope my skills haven't rusted till nothingness while I was busy with other things (other than baking D:). Honestly speaking, I have no idea how to decorate my muffins like the above. :( But still! I shall attempt! (though it will just fail ttm). :D

Moody.

2011-05-26T21:20:00.001+08:00

My blood pressure actually became really high yesterday. Can you imagine it? For someone who has quite persistently lower blood pressure/ marginal normal blood pressure, it has actually shot up by quite a bit.

It may be cause I'm a little mad.
It may be cause I'm a little irritated.
It may be cause I'm a little bewildered.
But mostly, it was disappointment.
Chance after chance after chance.
There has to be some point in time when you think that it's enough.
I'm so bloody disappointed in you. :'(

I'm happy with the rest though. :) I hope they'll do as well for Haversack selection. Seriously. :D They have a good probability of doing so. It would follow a poisson distribution with a relatively high lambda value! LOL. Fml mugger moment 101. Pardon me. I'm catching up on the 'undone parts of Poisson Distribution'. :X

I went around the school barefooted today. It makes me happy. LOL. :D
I wish we can do this everyday. Seriously. I get a kick out of being primitive. Major LOL.

Loveeeeeeeee.

2011-05-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

7 hours. That's how much time I spent glued to the television screen watching this talk. I'm inspired. I'm more optimistic. I'm grateful. Suddenly, I seem to have so many things that people don't. The opportunity cost I'm paying now seems to be so marginal as compared. I'm glad :)

I realised that I could just choose to not care. There! Simple as that! LOL. This sounds stupid, but I feel like a heavy burden has just been lifted off my weak (LOL ironic) shoulders!! :D:D

Sigh. It worries me. They've all started studying now. And I'm barely coping. It sucks. There are so many things on my mind now. Ironically, the one that should be the priority ends up as the last thing that I want to do. But, there's no time and excuse to procrastinate. I have to get things done. Even if it's a bit of work, it's still an accomplishment.

Yeah. Get your game face on. (^_^)Y

LOL. I wanted to type a cooler looking smiley, but fail ttm :P

Sugar. More sugar please!

2011-05-17T22:02:00.001+08:00

I will have my cake and eat it. So there.

It has been an unproductive day, the only thing I managed to do was to read through D&E so that I could get started on the tutorial. Sigh. I really have no idea what I'm trying to run away from. I shouldn't even care, the nightmares are going to end soon, anyway. If I give a damn to it I'm just 바보. It's okay. Someone will remind me when I make the same mistake again (SLAP). LOL.

Tmr will be a better day.
I mean, how could this get any worse, right?
Have. To. Be. More. Positive.
Even if that means plastering that big fat smile (gross ttm lol fml).

안녕!!

One "solution" leads to another problem.

2011-05-16T21:50:00.005+08:00

I want that sweater.

I just slipped.
Went shopping to cure my sudden surge of depressing emotions.
As I've always said (and believed in), retail therapy is the best treatment. :D

Until it becomes an addiction, that is.

Cause we're all lonely souls.

2011-05-13T15:54:00.004+08:00

The words I'm saying right now, I don't know if they'll hurt you
They'll probably make you hate me forever
You, saying that I'm not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well
You are so kind but
That's the way you are but oh
I don't know
I don't know why I am like this
We were so in love, and you're here now but oh
I don't know
I want to find myself now

Baby I'm sorry, even when I'm with you, I'm lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I'm sorry, this is our story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I'm by your side
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely x4

You didn't do anything wrong, I'm the strange one
It seems I've already been prepared long ago, for our breakup
I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I'm confronted by love
I am shrinking away and I am lonely endlessly
You are so kind but
That's the way you are but oh
I don't know I don't know why I am like this
We were so in love, and you're here now but oh
I don't know
I want to find myself now

Baby I'm sorry, even when I'm with you, I'm lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I'm sorry, this is our story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I'm by your side
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely x4

Cuz I'm just another girl
This night is lonely, I
Can't take any more, Good bye
Cuz I'm just another girl
I'm so lonely
Even though I'm by your side right now
Baby I'm so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely x4

Life is good!

2011-05-11T21:20:00.023+08:00

At least, for now. :) My appetite's back. My cough's gone, fever's definitely gone. I'm healthy, alive, kicking and torturing people during CCA. My tutorials are *cough* mostly done. I bought a blouse and 2 blazers (someone please slap me! why do I need to buy blazers in sunny singapore where the weather's permanently pms-ing?!?!).

Oh. I think my good mood now can be credited to my "fastest-finger-first" - the ability to secure a pretty red blazer! Gah bimbo moment 101 ~

Love made us blind
so sorry that I loved you
so sorry that I needed you
but sorry doesn't turn back time...

Angst.

2011-05-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

I've just deleted a long post filled with chinese words and I'm regretting it. It wasn't about school. It wasn't about cca. It wasn't about crushes nor friendship. It wasn't about the elections. It wasn't about clothes. It was about... goals. But then I realised that I haven't got an answer to the questions I asked myself. I'm going to KIV them until I get some answers from myself.

I've been sick for the past week(s). I'm tired. I can't eat well. I didn't sleep well. And I lost 1 kg (lol wtf doesn't make any difference). The weather's nuts and it doesn't help when I have mountains of work lying on my desk begging me to take a look at them instead of throwing myself on the bed.

*SLAPS SELF 1000000000 TIMES*

你可以休息但是你不可以倒下!!!
After today, I'll be like brand new again. I can do this :D

PS: I think that :)) looks like it has double chin! So cute :))

On the edge.

2011-05-04T18:12:00.040+08:00

I'm sure if I see you on the road 10 years from now, my heart would still speed up. Even if you won't recognise me anymore. The realisation didn't hit me as hard as I thought it would, so I guess the feeling of being crushed is not as strong now. I would forget, I will forget. Time will help.

Fever comes on and off to haunt me whenever it likes. I'm tired, hot then cold then hot, and quite depressed. I feel overwhelmed by the amount of things coming up. My mood has been really bad these few days due to the fever/ cough/ inflammed throat/ painful knees during rainy days.

7 May - Mother's Day family outing

9 May - Training + exco interview

10 May - Econs TA 2

13 May - CSM + Bio lecture + possibly, JTS

14 May - Incamp

17 May - Family gathering

21 May - Road March (which I don't think I can go for, judging by the distance and the state of my hip FML)

25 May - Physical selection

28 May - Haversack selection + Graduation

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Summary of 4 days.

2011-05-02T15:04:00.001+08:00

Friday:
School, send off, gift buying

Saturday:
Biology lecture, outing, "An evening of drama"

Sunday:
Burning up like nobody's business = sleep the day away + did Normal Distribution, 6A (how did I manage to do Math in that burning state?!)

Monday:
Rushing GP + Chemistry Group II lecture notes and tutorial.

It was suppose to be a "catch up + take a break" (have a kit kat lol) long weekend in conjunction with Labour Day since I couldn't go for the Ophir trip, but it turned out to be a "fall sick, comatose and sleep" weekend instead. The times while I was awake... Well, at least when my eyes were opened, was when I had to eat. Talking becomes a chore now, even as I swallow my own saliva while I'm typing, it hurts like crap :(

Eating = chore.
Swallowing saliva = chore.
Talking/ Responding = chore.

Ouch ouch ouch. :(

Not going to complain much though (irony), Shih Ching just emailed meeeeeee. Being the awesome buddy I am I replied her asap! ^^ It turns out that she has sore throat too! LOL! The 4000 km distance couldn't stop viruses from spreading :S

I sound incoherent :S

I should continue doing my GP essay! Sigh. I'm guilty of being lazy. As usual. I will change it! Gah.

(z_z)

Decisions.

2011-04-25T19:16:00.022+08:00

I have just made one of the possibly most difficult decisions in my whole short seventeen years of existence. I may be going BUT I'll not be climbing. The docter gave me something serious to think about.

"You have a choice".
"Er, well, I guess I do."
"You can choose to recover or make it worse. Again, your choice."

Yes, I do but no, I don't. I can choose to leave, to throw away all the messed up stuff but no, it's a commitment, a responsibility that I have to carry out. It's an obligation.

Sometimes, just sometimes, I wonder why so much shit happens. I can accept it if it happens, but that often?

"Life only throws you what you can deal with."

Ah. Interesting. I wonder if life thinks too highly of me, or should I be flattered by the high standards imposed upon me, then try to live up to it? I should, shouldn't I?

It's okay baby, please don't cry.

2011-04-24T19:09:00.000+08:00

sarangeun neomu shipge byeonhaeman gatjyo
seoro yokshim soge apeun sangcheoman nama gotta let you go
and please don’t cry
naraneun saram chamgeudae igen modwaejyo
babo gateun mameul motjabgo apeuge haetjyo
and please don’t cry

yeogi kkaji ga uri duri keuchingayo
saesangi uril heorakhalddae geuddae kkajiman

It’s okay baby please don’t cry
ginagin yeohaengi keutnajiman ddo eonjengan majuchikaejji
daeum sesangeseo kkok dashi manna

haruga meolke urin maeil dadeojyo
geuddaen mwoga geuri bun haedeonji maeil bameul ureojyo
baby i cried
neoraneun saramcham naegen mushim haejyo
gilgo ginagin bameulji saeneun nal hollo dueojyo
baby i cried

yeogi kkaji ga uri duri keuchingayo
saesangi uril heorakhalddae geuddae kkajiman

It’s okay baby please don’t cry
ginagin yeohaengi keutnajiman ddo eonjengan majuchikaejji
daeum sesangeseo kkok dashi manna

gakkeum nunmulri nal chaja eolddaemyeon areumdaweodeon uril gieoghalkeyo
geudae deo isang apeuji marayo jebal and please don’t cry

It’s okay baby please don’t cry
ginagin yeohaengi keutnajiman ddo eonjengan majuchikaejji
daeum sesangeseo kkok dashi manna

It’s okay baby please don’t cry
ginagin yeohaengi keutnajiman ddo eonjengan majuchikaejji
daeum sesangeseo kkok dashi manna

Food porn! (Pasta)

2011-04-20T21:07:00.010+08:00

Cheesy pasta for supper. Any takers? ;)

This is becoming a really bad habit. I'm going to grow sideways instead of vertically (which I don't need, but still, better than sideways, right?), which is regrettable because that would mean I won't fit into my old clothes. I want to fit into my secondary 2 jeans :(

Studying makes everyone grow fatter (hasty generalisation, lol).

Hot, then cold. Then hot again. My body's going mad.

Old wounds don't really heal.

2011-04-17T20:52:00.001+08:00

那痛，竟是如此的陌生，却又是如此的熟悉。

可是，我不允许自己停。

不停的催眠自己：不疼，不疼。

自己骗自己：只要不停，就不疼。

直到到家了才崩溃。

想哭，泪水却迟迟不肯流不出来。

恍惚中想起去年他们惊讶的问: 这样值得么？

而自己曾经那么坚定的回答：值得！

可是如今心境已经不同了，也找不回了。

少了那时的坦然和信念，取而代之是疑问。

信任，是那么脆弱的东西。

一旦背叛了，就永远也无法再建立起了。

真的，值得么？

只有傻瓜才会问这种没答案的问题。

我真的傻得彻底。

♥ A Kangaroo's Diary [袋鼠的日記]

Moving on from coding.

Happy lunar new year!

Pre-CNY Preparations.

Is being pretty everything?

Awkwardly true...

For you kids out there...

No more Monday blues

Don't lose touch

Food is the best thing in the world

The HOHOHO Sleepover :D

Secrets.

My life is so repetitive.

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y^__^Y

Imy...

Navi ft Tablo - I LOVE YOU

Hardcore fangirl-ing

Level up!

PROM @SWISSOTEL

It was a bitter day.

I want to sing KTV.

리쌍 - Turned off the TV

The Ideal Job.

You don't know you're beautiful

Still me. Boring me.

【那些年，我們一起追的女孩】

&I will always love you

PUSH ON.

想自由

I'm BOM-BIASED!

指 望

Determination will get you through this.

Tired.

Super cheery song! :D

Never a right time to say goodbye.

One of the many late night suppers

To trust or not to trust.

Nutrients for the eyes!

it's Friday

I'm so addicted to you.

(Un)written rules of the world.

Nothing but pain.

步步惊心

ruined by education

God bless.

I only have 2 feet.

Working hard!

Hwaiting!

I spy with my little eye,

Moody.

Loveeeeeeeee.

Sugar. More sugar please!

One "solution" leads to another problem.

Cause we're all lonely souls.

Life is good!

Angst.

On the edge.

Summary of 4 days.

Decisions.

It's okay baby, please don't cry.

Food porn! (Pasta)

Old wounds don't really heal.

指望